“You know how like, a couple years ago when we went back to Vegas for, a little like, trip and I said, ‘Are we done having kids?’ We both kind of went, ‘Ehh. I think no, I think we’re done,'” she said to Kody.
“I’m 41 years old. We need to decide this and now. Like, there’s a biological clock ticking. I’m not getting younger. We can’t sit here and stall out on this if this is what we’re going to do,” she said in a confessional.
Hearing his wife pose the question of where they were at, Kody said he was “caught in a conundrum, completely.”
“I’m pretty sure that I’ve been having kids for 26 years. There’s this real joy about having a little one,” Kody said to cameras.
“It’s mental exhaustion,” Kody said to cameras. “You’re arguing with a 4-year-old who has the words of a 10-year-old and the logic of an idiot.”
Becoming emotional, she continued, “It is, it’s a big deal to me. To make sure, to make sure all my babies are here with me. That’s all,” she added, beginning to cry. “In my head, I made promises to a certain amount of children to be their mother. You know, in the pre-life and I want to fulfill all those promises.”
“I want to have a life with you that’s not just all about our kids,” he said, before asking her opinion. “What do you think about that, though? Do you feel like, hallelujah?”
“I believe that we exist in a spiritual form before we are born and come to earth. I believe that I have had interactions with some of my children, you know when they were a spirit … before they were born,” she told viewers, further disclosing the “crazy fear in my head that I’ll leave somebody behind.”
The mother of five then went on to share about the vision she had of a little boy. “I don’t know what it was, but I had something, someone hanging around for a long time,” she told Kody. “Just a little dark-haired boy.”
Hearing that wasn’t helpful to Kody. “You have not helped me answer this question,” he said to his wife, who laughed.
“I felt like the decision’s made and then she blows me out of the water with a visual of a dark-haired boy,” he said in a confessional, later adding, “My blonde hair really comes out in the kids, so I doubt that we’d have a dark-haired boy. Maybe we’re supposed to adopt, I have no idea.”
While adoption wasn’t something he previously considered, Kody was more open to the idea for the future.
“Adoption was never an option because we were having our own children. But now that we’re winding up here, the idea of adoption is something that would be more appealing to me,” he told audiences.
Ultimately, the pair didn’t come to a conclusive answer.
“I don’t know what else to do with it,” she said to audiences, “because I don’t have a strong answer either way.”
Sister Wivesairs Sundays (10 p.m. ET) on TLC.
source: people.com
